I wonder what makes people choose their profession. Is it that they want to be where they are, or do they just kind of end up there? I know there isn't a black and white answer to this. It is a mixture of these and many other reasons that people find themselves in the occupation that they are in . Though, still I wonder how many people see what they do as a vocation and how many see what they do as an evocation. How many of us are called to do something. Maybe all of us are called to do something, but for one reason or another we just never actually make it. I wish that there were a divinational equation that allowed us to know what we should do. I also understand that your initial interest is not necessarily your dream job and that where you "end up" could be. It is just a tricky terrain to negotiate.
When I was little the first thing I wawnted to be was a fashion designer - isn't that weird? When I was in first grade we had to stand at the front of the classroom, while the teacher taped us for posterity, and declare to the world what we wanted to do when we grew up. I said that I wanted to be a fashion designer. When I would finish with my class work, I would spend the remainder of my time drawing: superheroes, mermaids, witches and wizards and occasionally monsters. I would always draw them, and then design the costume they would wear for the ages. Later I wanted to be an artist, then a lawyer, then I wanted to be a college professor, maybe a librarian. Everyone I speak to says, "well X (whatever the job is) is very difficult, are you sure?" I usually just get angry at whoever says that to me and don't really give a direct answer. Mostly because I feel like they are saying - "you obviously have no idea what you are doing." Why do people even ask that question? It doesn't seem to ever prove to be auspecious. Anyway, my only response to that is - have you ever had something that you wanted to achieve that wasn't difficult. If so, was it really that rewarding when you surmounted your oh so attainable dream, hmm. I thought not. I know anything that I want to do will be difficult. Following the path of least resistance, while easy - is certainly not the best path to follow. I know that I probably will not be the next Harold Bloom, F. Scott Fitzgerald, or J. R.R. Tolkien, but I will be John Ellis-Etchison, the best X that I can be. What is the X of your dreams, all of my friends who read this?
I think if I could be anything - the X of my dreams would to be a wizard. I would sit and study tomes all day learning the secrets of the universe, maybe even learn to shape my own reality. hmm.